How are your holiday preparations coming along? What aspect of the holiday season scares you, if any? How are you coping with your fear? Are you writing about it — or evading it?
One Step At A Time
This holiday season I'm trying to take a layed-back approach. I'm trying not to hurry, I'm trying not to stress, and I'm trying not to go overboard. These are all things that have defined my Christmases past.
Actually, I have not enjoyed the last 3 Christmases - since my sister died in 2005. But this year I'm making an effort. I have the Christmas tree up and I've been doing some baking. I've also been busily knitting all my family members scarves and matching hats. But I'm trying not to rush things - trying to take it one step at a time.
I don't think I fear Christmas - it's just the overwhelming sadness from the hole left in my heart. Writing helps me to overcome the sadness, and as a matter of fact, I have finished several short pieces relating to my sister. For some reason, getting my feelings down on paper makes them easier to deal with. If it weren't for my writing, I'm not sure where I would be. Probably in some deep, dark hole with my head covered up.
One step at a time ... one step at a time ...